Are you serious?

So today I took a test right? got what I thought was a 64....Ya....NO. The teacher posted it to be as 54! WTF. Then I get calls and texts and by this time I have come home ate lunch, and I am taking a nap and that shit happened....just wow. wow wow wow wow. Then after emailing and test banks being adjusted it went back to where it is supposed to be. It's just amazing to me nursing school is just 100X more difficult than I anticipated by the time you get all the paperwork and everything done you are overly tired and just want to collapse from everything you have been doing. Sometimes I think is it really worth it? It is I just have to get through it because I am a good person and I would make a great nurse I just have to fight for what I want and that's ok. I can do that.

Time Crunch

This is my schedule for this week including Friday

Friday
0630 wake up
0645 get kids up
0720 Girls on bus
0800 pick up babysitter
0900 Be in class
1300 leave school
1400 Clean house
1500 Do laundy
1600 pick up girls
1700 go do something fun with girls and puff (my nieces and nephew)
1800 eat
1900 drive to gmas and nanas house
2000 Arrive and collapse

Saturday
0430 get up and get ready for work
0510 leave for work
0535 arrive at work-open pool
0800 Teach swim lessons
1200 last lesson before break
1200 aerobics class
1300 Break
1400 Last swim lesson of the day
1430 Leave for home
1500 arrive at home - eat, shower
Now I just feel like I am dead on my feet and I have TONS to do

Intro 2 nsg- make notes for presentation because we have no idea when we are going and also make an order sheet for our presentation
Skills - we have a test this week....and we got a STUPID trach demonstration.....How do they expect to do something so important when you give a dumb presentation of it. HONESTLY...I don't usually complain about this type of thing but she was AWFUL, so i guess ill be looking them up on youtube. *rolls eyes* ridiculous im paying for an education that im not even getting.
Clinical- paperwork should be cut and dry NOT oh im different i want this. and another person says I want that....NO 1 set of paperwork, THATS it homie!


I have to much on my plate.......Im slowly losing my mind.

Intro to Nursing Journal Entry 1

So I received an assignment for a class  so I decided to post it on here with more added to it because I feel like in my classes I have to be edited so here it is with added on commentary:

1. Nursing is something that I did not pick first hand on what I wanted to be. I wanted to work for corporate america, more along the lines of an athletic team and get into coaching on the side but nothing seemed to ever stick. That was, until I started working in a nursing home. Nursing is a career that aides people in their time of need. We are the people who should be practicing what we preach. Nursing is the middle man between doctors and family that tries to bridge that gap between and see what areas the patient needs help in. 

2. I want to be a nurse because it will provide me with an opportunity to stabilize and ensure my future. Also, I have a need to help others.

3. My weakness in nursing is that I can not stand to see children die. I know that I am going to have a hard time in pediatrics because it is a reality that I will see a child die. I don't know how I am going to handle that but I am preparing myself for it.  The strengths that I bring to nursing are punctuality, empathy, manage my time well, quick on my feet and I am great at customer service.

4. If I could have a pick of where I wanted to work it would be at a place that could throw me into a rehab/aquatic center/surgery center for veterans.  I think so many new nurses want to work in a particular area that they don't leave themselves open to other departments. For example many pre-RN nurses tell me they want to work in the NICU, I want to stay away from that place because I couldn't work really well with parent over my shoulder every minutes while I am trying to work on my patient who is the size of my arm and helpless.

5. My five year goals are to realistically get my bachelors and masters but I would love to get my doctorate also. Everyone needs a plan B.

6. Right now my roadblocks look like the empire state building right now. Everyone talks about how they have kids but what about the people who don't have children? I feel like I am in a one-sided argument and the moms always think they have it the worst. We are ALL becoming nurses, we should be building each other up not cutting each other down and saying I have it worse than you.....are you going to tell a patient that? It just makes me question people in general. The only person who knows your life is you so instead of cutting someone down for not being financially responsible children maybe you should look at yourself instead. Everyone has their own personal problems you shouldn't discount peoples feelings because yours are different. As you can see my fellow classmates are a roadblock for me. Two ways I deal with this are working out and talking less about my personal life. 

Let me just add in here a little bit ^^^This Paragraph ^^^ actually happened. I don't discount other people's feelings ever. You have a right to your emotions. YOU felt them I DID NOT. I do not sit here an judge ANYONE and say you're a bad mother, mother or person. I think it is highly insulting for someone to tell someone that you're not going through anything because you don't have children. Let me quote the movie Baby Mamma " Bitch I don't know you're Life" and you don't know mine

Another issue I am going to deal with is if I am going to stay with my brother for the 3rd, 4th, and 5th semester of this program. This program gets more and more difficult as it progresses through and I can only spend less and less time being stressed with  outside activities. The first and second semester I will be staying with him but I just feel like I have an added load. It is a very hard decision because I love my nieces and nephew and I know what I am there they're being taken care of and they have a consistency in their life. My oldest niece is only 7 years old and it had been 7 years of RAGING HELL! You all have not a clue what I am talking about but trust me when I say this that it has been an insane years. I want to be a nurse truly because 1) I'll be good at it and 2) It will make me financially capable of taking care of children one day no matter how they come into my life and stay with me whether it be for one night or years. I will be capable of doing that. 

Clinical, Preclinical.....a day of sitting on my butt

So I am sitting down after a 12 hour day of BULL SHIT. Tell me why our faculty insists on taking up an ENTIRE day on bullshit. and please stop saying EVERY instructor is different.....then you know what you should do? Make a print out of each of your requirements and GIVE IT to you students!

Let me start from the beginning today was technically our first day at clinicals but essentially it was a waste of time. I know everyone has to get their items organized and all of that before anything can be accomplished and explanations have to be given of what is required but.......it was very lengthy and EVERY single instructor kept saying, " well I require this" or " I require that" really? REALLY? *deep breath* it will be fine. I know it will be but......lord its crazy and just hearing from other people who are further along in the program it will only get worse...it gets worse!!!! Dude I am dying from the overwhelming unorganization of it all.

I have no clue how I am getting through this....Actually I don't think I am overwhelmed in reality....I know that contradicts what I just said but ok let me say it like this.....It's like you are in a conversation with your Mom and she said to do it her way then your dad says no do it my way and your grandma comes along and says ohhh no baby. It is utterly confusing and blows your mind because they don't tell you anything before-hand and all you want to do it be pre-warned about things.....ugh....

it will be ok in the end.

Post 1

      Let me just say this in the beginning I don't know everything I don't want to know everything. But I have gone 8 weeks into Nursing school and I feel like I need an outlet of my experiences. I won't be telling you what nursing school I am going to school, tell you students names or talk trash. For many reasons but I think above all a lot of people would be pissed  at me and I am trying to have more positive forces in my life. So here it goes

     I have a final tomorrow and guess who's energy company came to replace one of the telephone poles AND guess who owns 5 dogs?! Don't get me wrong I am so appreciative of the situation I am in and can not tell you how much support I get but at the same time I feel like I am stretched to the limit of doing things for people.

    Such as I just got a call from my brother looking for something in the mail at my mom's house.......Look dudes and dudettes when you move out forward your mail to YOUR address. Until then its cool have it at your moms it doesn't cost anything to re-route your mail. You are an idiot if you keep having it sent somewhere that YOU first hand are not LOCATED at! Here is the address to: USPS......

     It just shocks me the amount of information you need to acquire and also the changes in syllabus that happens such as tomorrow I have a final and there is also a test called the Math Comp #2 tomorrow but when I told a professor that is when it was she looked at me like I was insane....and lo' and behold they changed it.....fml. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

So yeah Jump on Board The CRAZY Train of Nursing School because this is where you will be for 2 year/5 semesters.....fun stuff.